Girls.

Sometimes I wish I was a male. I mean I'm sure at least once in a life of every individual female, the wish of being a male has surfaced. If I were a man/boy, I wouldn't have so much of things called 'insecurities', 'emotions', 'jealousy' etcetra which haunts every so often. But that's life and this can't be changed unless I meet a fairy godmother who grants me this wish and in the end I will feel like a character in a novel who learns the meaning of "be careful what you wish for" and well, you get where I'm headed. So everyday I guess, I'm trying to love myself because I think honestly, that's the root of all the problems. Truth is, you can deny it but it never really goes away- at least for me, but what I can do is control it instead of letting it control me. It's all about perspectives, there's two sides to every predicament, remember to see the positives.

Beta Love

Pictorial updates:

Alma.

It dawned on me that I have not been blogging since a long long time and I am quite lost as to how to begin again. Nothing much has change these past few months really. Other than having the sudden drive to learn how to cook- which I shall make my sole new year resolution and studying for my semester tests, everything else has been pretty much the same. So I don't have much to say, sadly... but here's a song/band favourite, The Royal Concept.

love and such, x

Give Me Love

Spent my whole Sunday chilling on my bed and looking horrible while catching up with Gossip Girl- one of my many shows that I have to catch up on. For the first time in a long time, I actually felt a little  lost because I have no work to do and have time to do anything I want. But I'm not complaining, love lazy sundays.

"Slow down

Make it last

I'm having the time of my life

And take your photograph

I don't want to leave this behind

What seems so out of reach

We're holding it right in our hands

Let's give up everything

Let's jump in and never look back"

Stay Home Tuesday

Staying in and cooking lunch for myself on a rainy day

Animal shaped pasta with diced potatoes, lettuce and fried eggs topped off with tomato cream crab sauce. It doesn't look that good but it doesn't taste too bad. Cooking today was a last minute decision, I was just thinking of things to do to occupy my time yesterday and decided to cook. And also cause cooking just gives me a sense of achievement, especially when I make something edible hehe.

The Maine- Everything I Ask For (acoustic) when John had messy long hair in 08

"I don't know what she sees in me.

But I'm happy- she's happy now, that she's with me.

And I'm freaking out, cause I'm just so lucky."

"Everything I ask for, everything I ask for and so much more"

I'm Your Lionheart

So fuckin' tired. Of everything. You have no idea. (sigh)

Friendship, Innocence and a Pure Heart

The most moving book I have read in a long while.

Vulnerability

"Your handwriting. The way you walk. Which china pattern you choose. It's all giving you away. Everything you do shows your hand. Everything is a self-portrait. Everything is a diary."- Chuck Palahniuk

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