# 1

Thought that having 'Life Exercise' posts would help me reflect on life and treasure it more. This first exercise would be a topic that my nigga- Rishon and I discussed earlier today as we were talking over dinner.

#1. If you could be anything, what would you be?

I would be a photograph, not a digital one but one generated from a film camera. Why out of everything, not a living thing but a non-living everyday item that is sometimes under appreciated? A photo captured from a film camera might not be perfect nor can it be deleted but it shows a true moment that has happened even if things has changed since then. It is a source of remembrance for others and hopefully evokes nostalgia and a kind of bittersweet happiness. Things may change but that 'moment' will forever remain captured on film. Rishon said she would want to be a pencil, those traditional yellow and black striped 2B pencil because she could see what people would use it for and how they expressed themselves.

Girls.

Sometimes I wish I was a male. I mean I'm sure at least once in a life of every individual female, the wish of being a male has surfaced. If I were a man/boy, I wouldn't have so much of things called 'insecurities', 'emotions', 'jealousy' etcetra which haunts every so often. But that's life and this can't be changed unless I meet a fairy godmother who grants me this wish and in the end I will feel like a character in a novel who learns the meaning of "be careful what you wish for" and well, you get where I'm headed. So everyday I guess, I'm trying to love myself because I think honestly, that's the root of all the problems. Truth is, you can deny it but it never really goes away- at least for me, but what I can do is control it instead of letting it control me. It's all about perspectives, there's two sides to every predicament, remember to see the positives.

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I know I say this all the time, but I am truly so thankful that you are mine. Thank you for all the little things you've done for me that never fail to make me tear and cheer me up. Love you, c <3